city thoughts...

I've always been a fan of symbolism and looking at the ways my life is symbolic to the experiences/events going on around me.

For example: the lack of writing between my last two posts is very symbolic to my life in the past month. I wasn't writting becaue I felt completely uninspired and felt used up. It was also a way to avoid the reality that my life may not have been the most exciting at the time. I know that life doesn't always give us sunshine and roses. Sometimes we get cloudy days. Not updating the blog was a way for me to mask my cloudy days to everyone back home.

Writing can also feel like eating my vegetables or going to church. I know I should do it but don't  always want to. Sometimes it's not the most fun thing to do, at the moment, but it never fails...in the end I always feel so much better after I followed through with either going to church or eating healthier.  Once I get back into my writing I feel so much better. I am able to really digest everything life is throwing at me and in such a chaotic city it gives me a sense of peace and understanding within my own experiences.  I can step back and really look at the big picture instead of the minute details therefore staying more true to my own thoughts and desires.  

Going through the motions of daily life can be overwhelming. We all need to find some way to unleash and release all the negative energy. It's healthy. It's necessary. It's good for us.  Some people unleash by going to the gym, others drink, some meditate and do yoga.  For me...well I have to write.  So the next time you're not sure of where life is going to take you...just stop and step back.  Listen to your own heart and your own desires and continue to be true to yourself.  

For now...

-Blair